This is my favorite type of post to do. I use my word processor then transfer it to the Word press site. That way I can leave my computer and come back to it as another though pops into mind. It normally takes me about 3 hours to do a simple post like this that may only contain 3 to 5 paragraphs. I never know what is going to pop into my head but this morning I feel pretty good and am at peace and pretty much centered within myself so no rants should rear their ugly head.
I have put a lot of time and effort into my meditation the last couple of weeks. I’ve had to adapt from the traditional lotus position because of my back issues and am now using my recliner to meditate in. In some ways this is like starting all over again because if if I am not careful I will fall asleep when doing this in the recliner, but it also forces me to concentrate even harder to get to my place. When I am successful it is a feeling like all is right with the world and my place in it. I am calm,peaceful,centered and my yen and yang are balanced.
I took a trip to the flint hills north of here the other day for two reasons one was to get familiar with my camera again and the other one was to use the pictures to write a couple of post about. This trip was a disaster from the start. The weatherman had it backwards it was cloudy most of the day the few times the sun came out I was shooting right into it. This Flint Hills drive is listed as one of the scenic drives in Kansas. The most picturesque part of the drive was a 40 mile section of actual hills with old limestone fences and huge limestone mansions built over a hundred years ago. The only problem was there was no shoulder at all to pull over and take pictures. I ended up driving on to a town called Osage it was once part of the Oregon trail. I took a bunch of pictures of the tourist type of landmarks and such. I had tried to shoot in a medium format to make my shots smaller for the web. I started to weed through the 300 plus shots I took last night and am not impressed with medium format. On my High Def screen they just don’t look as crisp and clear as a full frame shot. I will sort through the rest of them and hopefully I can find enough to make a post or two about.
A month or so back I posted about my procrastination. I had a list of three or four things I had put off. I completed them all expect the hanging of the pictures of my Daughter and Grand Daughters. I put about half of them up in the hallway and the other half are still in a pile in the living room. I put them in the hallway so I would walk by them every day but have the opportunity to ignore them if I wanted which I usually do. They live in California and I haven’t seen them for a year and a half. It may be a long time before I get the chance again. I can’t fly out there because I am on the no fly list, long story for another day. I used to take the train out there because it was like an adventure to travel 36 hours on a train. I had to spring the extra money for a sleeping car but it was well worth it. I leave here at like 3 in the morning so I end up sleeping 2 full nights on the train. Now I return to the back problems, I cant even sleep in my own bed much less that thing they call a bed on the train. I have to sleep in a recliner at home to support my back. My Daughter works two full time jobs to make ends meet because one of Her baby Daddy’s refuses to give her a cent. He works off the books for cash so she cant go after Him for any money. So they wont be coming back here anytime soon.
I have very few fears in life. My greatest one is that I will never get to see the three people that I care about the most in this world again.